I'm 41 weeks, 2 days today and had an appointment this morning with one of my favorite midwives. I am still not dilated at all and have a low Bishop's score, but we are in agreement that it's time to move forward with an induction. Due to aspects of the acrania/anencephaly, Naomi's body is not signaling to my body that it is time for her to come out like it otherwise would. Despite the low Bishop's score, my previous strong birth history will hopefully mean that my body will respond quickly to the interventions and start doing what it's supposed to with just a little prodding.
We were looking at going in tonight but they are fairly busy right now so it's going to be tomorrow morning. Unfortunately our area is getting yet another blizzard of 8-12 inches of snow expected on Wednesday/Thursday. I already can't see the road when parked at my house due to the insanely high snow banks, so I don't know where this snow is going to go, but at least it's one thing I don't have to be the one to deal with. Hopefully the roads will still be relatively clear when we head in to the hospital.
I won't say that I *want* to be induced as of course I would prefer for it to just happen naturally, but obviously there are many things about this pregnancy that I would change if I had the power to do so. I can't go back in time and prevent us being exposed to norovirus. I can't snap my fingers and make a blizzard not come. I can't wish for my body to go into labor and expect it to do so at my command. I can't just decide for my baby to be healthy and have it be so. All I can do is keep going forward, trying to make the least worse choices.
Love you. My heart is with you. Praying. Safe travels. Safe delivery.
ReplyDeletehugs and prayers, for whatever you need right now...strength and comfort especially.
ReplyDeleteGood luck. If you need anything let me know. I still have the email you sent weeks ago with all the important contact numbers. Praying for you guys.
ReplyDelete"...the least worse choices" breaks my heart for you. Gives a whole new dimension of meaning to "the next right step".
ReplyDeleteMany, many prayers headed up for you and your entire family. May God be with you.
ReplyDeletePrayers.
ReplyDeletePrayers for you, Naomi & your dear sweet family. I pray the birth is easy for you and that you have a good amount of time with this little blessing from God.
ReplyDeleteMany hugs and good wishes to you dear friend. Love, Ramona
ReplyDeletePraying for you all, Sarah.
ReplyDeleteRepeatedly entrusting you and your induction/labor/birth AND Naomi to the merciful will of Our Heavenly Father. Happy Almost Birthday, Naomi! So eager to see and hear all about you!
ReplyDeleteTrying to make the least worse choices? No, Sarah, you've made all of the right choices for that sweet little girl. Don't you ever doubt it! I will be praying for you all tonight and tomorrow and the many days to come. Little Naomi has already been such a blessing to so many and she's not quite "here" yet. I know she'll continue to be a blessing to many!
ReplyDeleteI think that is the perfect attitude... it's so true! If we could have everything go perfectly we would. But all we can do is what we can do and just go with the flow. Prayers for you and your family and your sweet baby girl.
ReplyDeleteHi my name is Susie, I'm a friend of Regina Wade. She told us about your blog and about Naomi's impending arrival tomorrow. I just wanted to share quickly about my little boy Joshua - he was born 5 years ago on January 7, 2008. He had a several occipital encephalocele - where the skull forms partially, but a hole remains and brain tissue herniates out of the skull. He lived for 9 weeks and then passed into Jesus arms. Knowing his diagnosis for 21 weeks was so rough. I know where your head's at and I just wish I could give you a hug. Praying for you all tomorrow. May your time with Naomi be blessed. My 3rd baby - the one born after Joshua is actually Naomi Aroha (means Love). Love from the Sams Family (mnssams.blogspot.com <--- Joshua's story).
ReplyDeleteSarah, my heart aches for you as you approach tomorrow's delivery. Please know that many, many family and friends will be praying for you as you get to the hospital and deliver. Know that the Lord will stand by you as you hold your precious girl and take your time in saying what you want to tell her. Sending love and prayers,
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Sarah, my heart aches for you as you approach tomorrow's delivery. Please know that many, many family and friends will be praying for you as you get to the hospital and deliver. Know that the Lord will stand by you as you hold your precious girl and take your time in saying what you want to tell her. Sending love and prayers,
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I am praying for you and will be holding you in thought and prayer tomorrow. May God's peace be with all of your family, especially you and your precious Naomi.
ReplyDeleteSarah, I wish that any of us could change any of those things for you, but of course most of all for Naomi to be able to stay with you. We ache for you; we pray for you; we send love and all the support we can to you. We wish we could do more.
ReplyDeleteSarah, we hold you and Naomi and your whole family in our prayers. God be with you always.
ReplyDeleteI'm a friend of Becky Mandala, and I wanted you to know that I will be holding you in prayer all day tomorrow. I'm not sure what religious denomination you are, but the Memorare prayer helped me so much when I was afraid during birth. I'm going to put it here in case it would be helpful to you.
ReplyDeleteRemember, O Most Gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to thy protection, implored thy help, or sought thine intercession was left unaided. Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto thee O Virgin of Virgins, my mother. To thee do I come, before thee I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions but in thy mercy hear and answer me.
So many prayers with you tomorrow. God bless, and praying for strength for your journey.
Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers!!!
ReplyDeleteSending lots of love and prayers to you all for everything you need.
ReplyDeletePrayers for all of you.
ReplyDeletePraying that things go as well as possible and that God blesses you with a beautiful, peaceful day with precious Naomi in your arms!
ReplyDeleteSarah, You don't know me but I'm a friend of your mom's. My heart aches for you and your family-- this is a lot to bear. I'm praying for all of you, that the Lord will strengthen you and carry you through these days ahead.
ReplyDeleteHey there, I've been praying for you a lot today. Jyn told me your story and my heartaches for you. I have a similar story with my daughter. She was born October 26, 2012 and we spend an incredible 11 minutes with her after birth. We knew she was made extra special from about 20 weeks and cherish the time we had with her. You are not alone in this. This mommas heart is broken but the Lord holds it together and is stitching it back together as we speak. We are fearfully and wonderfully made and on top of it God has a plan for us.
ReplyDeleteIf you want to talk I am always here. My blog is on wordpress so please don't hesitate to find me.
Here are some Bible verses I cling to
Jeremiah 29:11
Psalm 139:13-17
Romans 8:38,39
Revelation 21:4
Blessings on you and your family sweet sister. Greater things are yet to come.
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