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Tuesday, February 27, 2018

5 years

Another year, another blog post.  This year felt more significant hitting five years.  Maybe because  of the number, or maybe because she would be starting kindergarten.  Each year gets quieter with those who remember (or at least those who say something), but it doesn't bother me.  What’s important to me is honoring this day with my husband and other children, and not so much the other stuff (although certainly still appreciated).  I still feel some internal pressure to exhibit our mourning in a certain way, but I’m starting to let go of that expectation.  I’m not sure if I’ll always do a birthday blog post or not, because I don’t want to just keep repeating the same stuff.  But it’s nice having the pictures of the other kids, so maybe I will.

I picked out and ordered an awesome footprint necklace that will have her actual footprints engraved on it, but there were some ordering glitches and I don’t have it yet.  We also have not ordered a headstone yet.  This year will be the year, I hope!  It’s sad to see her spot bare since they no longer allow any decorations on the grass at all.  We no longer have appointments in that area, so I don’t stop by nearly as often.

I’m trying to make a point of talking about Naomi more with my 2yo.  I tried prompting her yesterday with “and who is your other sister?”  She said, “Hay-ee??”  (Her best friend, Haley.)  It was hilarious and made me laugh, although not surprising since she guesses Hay-ee first for pretty much anything.

One thing that did happen was putting up some of our favorite Naomi pictures on the living room wall.  The frames had been hanging empty for a while (much to my mother’s chagrin), and my husband surprised me by getting them printed and in there for my birthday.  I had planned to get them edited before printing, but prints are not expensive so we can easily update them if/when the editing gets done.




Today we went to the graveyard and then had dinner at La Festa again.  We’ve done things a little bit different every year, but the La Festa tradition may stick.  The kids love to see the cooks spinning the pizza dough.






I love this tree and having the open field around it.



They spied a tree they could climb.


Enjoying a cannoli.